Thursday, September 13, 2012


It  has been for ever. Reason being life don't stop.  I would like to say things will slow down and get better but the chance of that don't look good. Tyler finished soccer a couple weeks back. He was sad but we needed the break. Derek finished summer softball and also took a break off for fall league. Even without all that we are staying busy. One HUGE thing that has happen is Tyler is finally fully POTTY TRAINED! I have never been more happy about something. It was by far the hardest longest road. But its past and now I realize how grown up he is and my heart breaks.  He is a super smart goofy kid that can always make you laugh.  Love my boy. Heres a 3 year old pic.

Monday, May 7, 2012

Letting Go

Tyler is will be 3 in 3 months. And last night I got a reality check I wasn't ready for. The thought and talk about putting him a 3 year old program. (pre preschool) As Derek and I were looking a school choices and the time he would be in school my heart broke. I go so emotional I couldn't stand it. I don't want him to be gone all day. I can't imagine my day with out him. I don't want  to let go! We have been up and down about homeschool and private school and what to do. And well I now am 100% convinced I want to do homeschool. But on the flip side I know I can't make that decision based off of feelings and not wanting my boy to grow up. There are so many pros and cons to both. But I have not been able to find a whole lot of homeschool support or groups in are local town. Maybe I just don't know how or what to search to find them.  Which has me worried I won't be able to get Tyler involved enough with homeschool. Either way I want my 3 month old little baby boy back. I can't stand the thoughts of him not being my baby anymore. But rather a big boy ready for school.  I have only been away from him two nights. And he has only had someone watch him for 6 hours without Derek or I being there once. Then maybe 4 times left with someone for a couple of hours thats it.  He goes and does everything with us.  I need to start letting go but how does one do that?

Friday, May 4, 2012

Bye Bye Funk

Well I have managed to get out of that awful funk. I am back on my cleaning schedule.  I have been walking my mile plus a day. I am down five pounds :-) So happy about the loss. Only 25 or 30 more to go. Next week I am gonna tackle the awful potty training situation.  ( So I hope and pray)  I have been trying to get Tyler fully potty trained but have not had any luck. So come next Monday is it. I am not going to stop until he is completely trained.  He will be 3 years old in 3 months and I have let it go on long enough.  I just pray that my head will corporate with me. I have been getting a migraine every Sunday evening and it lasting well into Wednesday.  It has been hard to work threw it. But I have no choice.  They have also made me super emotional. Which I am trying to work threw that as well.  I am full of emotions right now and have been super moody.  I need a vacation and a break but can't see any of that happening in my future.  Happy Friday every one! Enjoy every moment with your loved ones.

Wednesday, April 25, 2012

In A Funk

So company has been long gone. But I am still in a weird funk. I am finding it so hard to get back into a routine of things. Cleaning and keeping up with normal house work has been the death of me. And laundry. I can never keep up with it. But other then that life has been good. I am loving being home in this nice weather and being able to go to the lake fishing and play all evening in the yard. Tyler is growing growing growing. Talking more and more. And turning into the best little actor I know. Derek is doing good.  He decided to join a softball league. So are Friday nights is spent at the ball field. He has two games a night and is enjoying having free time to do that.  Life is great.

Monday, March 26, 2012


It has been awhile since I have had a chance to get on here. I have been kept busy with family coming in from CO. My dad has been out once a month to visit for the last few months. Then my mom has come out and visited. Now I have this week to prepare for company that will be here thursday. The guest room is always in use. With getting a week break in-between if lucky. It has been good getting to see them though. And Tyler has got to know them better. We was lucky to get away over this past weekend and go meet some great friends and hang out on a mini vacation. Summer isn't even here and we don't seem to have enough hours in a day. But life is great.  So if I'm not posting much its because I have company or am out enjoying life with my wonderful guys. (my hubby and son)

Tuesday, February 28, 2012

Safe To Say

Spring is here?! We have been in the 60's-70's the past few weeks. Windows have been open nearly ever day. I love it. Spring and Fall are my favorite seasons. I have enjoyed being outside playing with Tyler. Being able to take Mishka on her walk without freezing to death. Even though I think she would rather have it cold. I have even been able to sit outside while Tyler plays in his corn box and read a book. Only thing I am not loving is allergies already. Whatever is blooming I wish it would just die already! Tyler and I have been sneezing are heads off all week:-/ I am afraid its going to be a really bad year for allergies.  Other then that I am ready to start planing camping trips, go fishing, swim, be out on the boat, yard sales and the list goes on. 

Tuesday, February 21, 2012

How Do You

Raise your child not to have the only child syndrome? When he is the only child? With Tyler being close to three he is getting into thats mine phase. And I have come to realize as a parent I have failed! I have spoiled him way to much. I don't want him to be an ungrateful brat. So how do you go about teaching him with out him having  a sibling? If the Lord decides to give him a sibling that is wonderful. But as of now we are content with knowing he is our miracle baby.  Derek and I love him to pieces and wants what is best. So as we are not able to give him the sibling that we would love to right now or maybe forever what do you do? And knowing 80%  anyway he won't be going to public school he is never going to have good interaction with kids his age. How do you help and stop this?

Wednesday, February 15, 2012


I am officially out of lunch ideas for Tyler. The three things he does eat he is getting burnt out on. I have been trying new things here and there but it just ends up being a waste. I am getting very frustrated! He will eat ramon noodles, fried rice(one certain brand only) and salisbury steak.  The list I have tried for lunch is mac and cheese, corn dogs, peanut butter and jelly, sandwiches, nachos, pizza, chicken nuggets, fish sticks,  spaghetti Os, grilled cheese, grilled chicken, hamburgers, and the list counties. He does eat whatever vegetable I put with it but doesn't get full just off that. So after lunch he wants to snack the whole time up till dinner time. I am trying to find a website with kid lunch ideas but haven't came across any. He eats fresh fruit for his snacks and also gets a package of fruit snacks, eats veggie crackers or goldfish snacks.  So any help, tips, or meal ideas is welcome. I'm all out.

Monday, February 6, 2012


I got to see my grandma and and two uncles yesterday as they were driving threw to go to Arkansas. Got to visit with them for a couple hours. It was nice getting to see them. Now my dad is headed here to come visit for the week. Talk about being lucky.  It has been so nice getting to see my dad so often.  He has definitely stepped up since we have not be able to make it to Colorado since May 2011.  I so hope we can go out there this summer though.  So this week will be busy with Tyler and his Papaw playing. If the weather stays nice maybe a trip to the zoo and parks. And we can do the aquarium the day its not so warm.   I love when family comes to visit. But I am already not looking forward to the goodbye:-/ It will no doubt be hard like last time.

Thursday, February 2, 2012

Bad News

Well we took Tyler into the dentist to get his teeth checked. And got some really bad news. He has four cavities! For a kid that don't eat anything really sweet I was shocked.  My heart broke and I had to fight back the tears as the dentist was telling us are options.  He is going to have to go to the children's hospital and be put under to do the work. As a 2 1/2 year they can't do it while they are awake with in office sedation. Which is understandable cause there is NO WAY Tyler would sit there. But I couldn't help but get sick to my stomach. My baby with an i, getting put under and getting his teeth drilled on:-( Me not being the to protect him from any pain. Needless to say I broke down into tears as soon as we hit the truck!  Feeling like it was all my fault and that somehow I could have prevented all of this.  Lucky Derek was there and able to calm me down and talk me threw.  So now I have to get all the insurance approvals and get things set up.  Prayers will be greatly appreciated in the up coming weeks as we prepare for this. I will keep an update on here and FB of the date of surgery and how he is doing when it all happens.

Monday, January 30, 2012

This and That

So running has taken a back burner since getting sick. I have been down for a week now. The week before that was the week long basketball tournament. So I have had no time. Then in the mist of all that I decided to get Tyler completely diaper free. Well I'm sad to say it still hasn't happen. The stinking kid will go all day long around the clock. But if I fail to set a timer he doesn't tell me and well the end result is him peeing on the floor.  Other then me being sick the rest of the family is doing good. Tyler has stayed healthy and so has Derek. We have had crazy spring like weather all month which has aloud us to play outside everyday and even get some trips to the park in and the lake to fish. I love being home. I have big plans to take random camping trips this summer to the lake. Day by day Tyler and Mishka are playing better and better. I  am so blessed with my two boys.

Wednesday, January 11, 2012

Hit By A Bus

Or so that's how I feel. I started off walking three miles a day. Then somehow I got the bright idea to at least run 1 of the three miles and boy do I feel it in every lower part of my body.  I crawled out of bed today.  So I have a walking buddy on Mon, Thu,and Fri's. Which is a huge help. I went to the gym yesterday by myself for the first time. And it wasn't near as bad as I thought it would be. In fact I loved the alone time and look forward to next time.  I can't wait till I start seeing some results from it all.  I am having a hard time with the cravings of anything sweet:-/ But I haven't gave into temptation. I even was able to squeeze a piece of pizza into my calorie count and drank water with it for the first time. I have always been a firm believer of pizza and coke. But its those bad habits that got me to this place.

Friday, January 6, 2012

Healthier Me

No it's not a new year resolution. It's a I've been trying but not really the past few months. And now that the holidays have past it's time to get into gear! Since getting the dog we have went on walks everyday sometimes two a day. So that has been helping. I am now counting calories again. I am on a 1,044 calorie intake a day. And have been doing 30 sit ups this week a night and will increase that each week.  Also checked gym membership and will be budgeting that into the bills and see if we can make that happen. I would love to get into a Zumba class.  I have thrown all junk food out of my diet. But my husband is killing me on bringing stuff into the house. And his eating habits are beginning to gross me out. Especially knowing how many wasted calories he is putting into his body. lol My goal is top loss 35 pounds.

Tuesday, January 3, 2012

Heart Broken

Well for the first time since moving away from my family I have truly felt my heart break! Yes it was hard when I first moved. But I understood  and was okay with it.  I knew when we had Tyler things was gonna be hard being away from home. But never in my mind could I prepare myself for the day I faced yesterday.  I also wanted to be moved back home before I had kids. I didn't want them to grow up not getting to be around my parents. Well I soon realized that just could not happen. It has not been the lords will for it. And I am 100% at peace with it. But yesterday was rough.  My dad had come out to visit and he left to go back home yesterday. Well Tyler took to my dad so much. It surprised me in fact. It was Papa this and Papa that. Well all morning he knew something was going on. Then the good byes came. Tyler was crying Papa want to go. Getting his blanket and trying to get out the door to my dad. My dad broke down in tears. I seen his heart break to pieces as well.  So the door closed and all you could do is hear Tyler scream PAPA crying. It was awful. Because Tyler isn't old enough to understand. So after I got him calmed down I lost it.   This morning he woke up asking for Papa. Looking around the house for him. And whimpering all around the house. My heart aches.